So...I'm a 40 year old "girl/woman" who is definitely not ready to grow up. I'm not immature in my thinking, or even actions. I just DON'T want to grow up. And my biggest thrill is when people accuse me of being my 20 year old daughter's sister. 😋 Yes, it puts a smug smile on my face. All the years of sunscreen has worked. Hell-fucking-yeah bitch!! Like who knew that i would be 40 with a face like this?? Maybe I would have taken a little better care of my body when I was younger. Lol mainly I would have exercised more after having my kids. It just felt like such a busy and exhausting time to raise kids...who had time for exercise? I barely had time to cook and clean.

I have to admit right now...I have a hell of a lot to get off my chest. I'm ready to fully unload my thought burdens on this blog and go back to my first love of the internet...blogging.

Shit! I fell asleep earlier, around 7 pm. I didn't intend on it happening...it just did! My body does things that I don't want it to do. My sleep and wake style being the main thing. Well that and not losing weight. Shit! Makes me so mad to think I could be sleeping right now. Makes me wonder (from the way I was raised) if I need to pray and give my burdens to God. Am I up because of my burdens? Do I even feel like I have burdens right now? Kinda....NOT. so fuck you thought bubble.

Did what I just write even make sense? Screw it...I actually feel a little tired now. I'm going to forget my ex...forget trying to get into nursing school...forget all the potential guys I could date...and go back to sleep. I'm glad I started this blog. Yes...my midnight snack without the calories.

More later